One December night we raced down
the freeway with the windows fogged and Ratatat’s Seventeen Years booming. I made up a melody with lousy lyrics, my
friend began to spit babbling rhymes, and our third friend, choir-trained, added
a golden harmony from the backseat. We slipped through traffic and the dark,
improvising.
Annie Dillard wrote that “the newly
sighted see the world as a dazzle of color-patches. They are pleased by the sensation
of color, and learn quickly to name the colors, but the rest of seeing is
tormentingly difficult.” Seventeen Years
was only that mad rush through the dark, the lights of other cars blurred by
the condensation we couldn’t clear, so to listen and somehow, simultaneously, see – “tormentingly difficult”, indeed.
I attempted to first capture the
clearest feeling. A high synthesizer wails, tight but keen: it feels like
infatuation. Infatuation is its own isolated universe, shining and confused and
colorful, so I cut out a night sky, pasted it onto an explosion, and added
color, diamonds, and a couple to cuddle in this tiny world.
Then I tried desperately to convey
that night and the rich darkness, the cacophony of nonsense we strung into
music. I depicted the rap stuttering along, out-of-focus; the melody rose, fuchsia;
and the harmony rolled, golden and curved, over and through them. I grabbed
magazines and listened to Seventeen Years,
cutting out anything that looked like the song felt. Thus the next collage was
atmospheric: hushed jewel tones and reflections, unfamiliar patterns and
crowded cities. Seventeen Years is a
rich, layered, contemplative urban jungle.
As I watched for colors, I felt the
rhythm instead. I found a picture of African women marching and drawings of thick
arrows. Glued together, their joint march pulsed on like the beat. But the beat
slipped into darkness, and I suggested that creeping stillness with a photo of
the Aurora Borealis laid behind snow-covered pines and inverted rocky slopes. I
ripped the edges because the descent feels less polished than primeval.
I ended at the beginning: a few lines
are spoken, a high synthesizer warbles into being, and suddenly – the drop. I
made it literal: a streak of red falls and explodes into dust and smoke and
tiny fragments. What else could I see? National
Geographic, the magazine from which I cut, showcased dozens of
photographers looking into the dark and seeing. In Whale Whisperers, Anuar Patjane looked into the sea and saw
light, shadows, majesty. So I closed my eyes and sketched what I saw in the
dark: a man with a crooked nose, leather-jacketed, a little smooth, with lots of swagger.
At last, in the dark, a thing I
hadn’t yet seen. Just halfway through, the bass enters, grey and nearly
unnoticed. Like the collage, he walks into and through the levels of the song like
a stranger learning a city before he disappears entirely into its walls.
Awesome! I especially love the black women/arrows one and the city buildings <3 You talented babe.
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